I Will Forget You

I'll forget you.

Your scent, your smile,

That darling indentation beneath

Your laugh lines.

I will throw away all

The things that attracted me.

This is not right.

I could have done better

Than spend my days dreaming

Constantly about you.

I will remove your voice

From my memories.

Let the silence descent.

I would rather close my eyes,

And my heart, than remember you.

Your name will be banned

In my house, in my heart,

Until you become a stranger.

I'll burn your memories.

Until there's nothing left to remind me

Of the nights we spent together.

You have become like a curse,

That I need to exorcise from my life.

Go away.

I'll bury you.

This time, in the darkest corners.

Along with the times you loved me,

And soothed away the loneliness.

I will remember them no more.

Let the roots dry up and the tree die.

- RM. 2021.05.28

The Fall of Your Dreams: Autumn Heartaches

          Some would say that falling in love is the best feeling in the world. And then some would say, of course not. It's one of the worse feelings. Because it's risky. It's dangerous. And it takes away a part of you that you can never get back, whether such love is returned, one-sided, or just ended.

          Naturally, the worst part is that you loved, was unable to express it, and yet you know that your love has been thrown back to your face--slightly used, with not even a 'thank you' for the use of it.

          And thus is the fate of a heart too loving, too trusting, and too easy to deceived.

          And then you cry. Not the crying with tears, but that choking cry of the heart--without tears, without outward expression, except for the lonely eyes, and blinding smile of one pretending to be okay.

          But it's not okay. Not even a little. For your heart has been thoroughly used, and yet abandoned when someone much beautiful than you has come.

          You can't even claim 'foul!' because you never had a hold, anyway. You've given freely. Bravely betting, unable to imagine that you'd lose everything. And yet you did. You did.

          Once again, another piece of your heart gone. To a person who was unable to appreciate what they had. Too enamored of what they've found, quickly forgetting that it was you who've been there through the tough times.

          No thank you, just goodbye.