Somebody Told Me Today

Somebody told me today

That I must be in a good place.

That I’ve never experienced heartache;

That I don’t cry over lost,

What ifs—

That my heart doesn’t clench

At the thought of

Suspected betrayal

From someone I loved

So much—

So much—

So much—.

I laughed

Inwardly, of course.

I don’t want to ruin

The façade,

The mask,

The endless, brittle

Smile

That you told me

I always carry.

I’m such a lady,

You said.

With a scoff,

And anger that I didn’t

Comprehend, until

You acted as if

I am a villain

That last night

When you broke me—

And my heart.

My little heart, you said.

So little,

That it could not

Contain you.

Or your love.

How arrogant!

Are you my world?

You surely wanted to be.

You called me selfish,

Ignorant

Unloving

Uncaring.

You said I’m unable

To love—

Because I couldn’t love you

Enough.

Enough!

Enough!

When somebody told me today

That I must be in

A good place,

I smiled.

The smile you hated.

I smiled

Because I hated you.

Because I loved you.

And you hated me,

Threw me

Away!

I smiled because

I—

I moved on.

I didn’t tell them

That they were wrong.

It was okay—

I’m okay—

Because now,

I hate you no more.

I don’t even know you

No more.

3/10/2020 RM