Is This What Love Is?

 Is this what love is

I fall for another

But when I close my eyes

I still see you,

And your bright smile.

Taunting me of dreams

I've let go for a long time.

Is this what love is

I look at your pictures 

And call you ugly

But I smile, my heart smiles.

Because I see your bright eyes

Taunting me of dreams

I've taught myself to forget.

Is this what love is

I say I'm just fond of you

That I've given up.

But I see the sadness in your eyes

And the tears in your smiles.

Making me remember

Why we're the half of each other.

Is this what love is

I push thoughts of you

By loving another

But my heart clench

When I see a remembrance of you

Making me remember

Why we're the half of each other.

Is this how much I love you

That even when we don't talk

Even when we don't see each other

I remember the feel of your hands

The tears, kisses, and long goodbye

Taunting me of dreams

I don't want to remember.

Is this how much I love you

That when I hear the echo of your voice

See a shadow of your smile,

The subtle crinkling of your eyes,

Your confident stance reflected in another

My bruised heart still waits

For you to choose me this time.

-RM

2021.05.07

Dearest--Come to Me!

 Dearest--

I missed you so much today,

And yet we've never met.

I found myself inclining to my right

To say something silly,

Something tart,

Something wholly not for public hearing;

But you weren't there.

You haven't been there yet.

And yet I miss you so.

The touch of your calloused hands,

The careful way you touch my hair

When I say I'm tired

And need the strength--

--maybe a little charge--

In order to keep moving on.

My love, when will you come

To me?

I've been alone for so many years.

Sometimes lonely,

Sometimes not.

Most of the time,

I'm just numb and frustrated

That you're not yet here

By my side.

For me to cherish,

For me to cuddle with,

For me to infuriate

To my heart's content.

My heart is bursting with love 

I haven't yet shared with you.

Come to me quickly.

Quickly. A little more faster.

And with open arms,

I'll welcome you to my bossom.

Come to me, love.

And let us start our memories

Together.

- rmpsd'2020

Longing

I see you,

I always hear you,

When I turn on the radio

Hear your music

See you on the little screen.

I can almost feel you.

But you’re not here.

Thousands of miles away

I wait for your call

Which never came

It’s okay. It’s okay.

I understand,

I’ll love you just the same.

잘자요, 에기야 / Sleep Well

I keep thinking we'll meet each other soon.
Sometimes, I wonder why I feel so,
But when people echoes
This deep secret of me,
I feel like a door will open soon.
You and I, the night we've been waiting for.
Too much love, not enough--
This has always been our lot.


The night air stirs as I wonder in the dark.
Will you recognize me?
Will I recognize you?
When we have never met before.
We haven't talked.
There's nothing of each other that we know.
Maybe a little--what I want you to be;
And what you expect of me.

Figment

The street was dark, shadows dancing to and fro,
Strong winds propelling me to walk faster.
Faster. The cold seeping into my bones.
Eager for the warmth of my own room.

Suddenly, a hand on my shoulder
Stopped me in my single-minded goal.
Startled, I choked on my scream and froze
For a second. Until you spoke.

"Where are you going on a rush?"
You asked while rubbing my cold hands.
Shaking, I answered:
"Home. It's too cold. I just want to go home."

Cut Me Flowers

Cut me flowers from the field where we went last June.
Pick for me the best blooms, the bright and the well-stemmed.
Take out the weeds that tried to kills these beauties;
Remove the small crawlies who tried to make their home there.
Wrap a string around the stems; softly so they won't crumble.


I will wait for you in that place where we first met.
Praying that life would be better than it had been.
Wishing for strength, protection, provision, and love;
I will wait for you there, no matter the weather.
Come to me like a dream, or a prince, or a knight of old.

Obsession: Beautiful Dream

I saw you once
Twice; then again.
And again.
And yet we've never met.
I saw you, liked you,
Fell for you.
It was all one-sided.


You are an impossible
Dream; So far, so far
So hard to reach.
I look at you, and dream.
Will we ever meet?
Fall for me?
Break this cycle of need?

To You I'm Waiting For

I wish I could meet you soon
It has been so long since my heart,
Beat high and low,
From land to sky
And somewhere in between
Stopping when a smile
Brightens the day.


When I close my eyes
I see you with your cat smile
And your sad eyes.
The careful move of your brows
As if asking,
'Did you miss me so?'

Out there in the snow,
I see you waving,
Stretching your hand
To me.
'Come away with me.'
I will.
Come to me.

To The Man I Will Marry

Write me letters.
Letters not type-written; but letters
from your pen.
Write me not promises, but of truths
you intend.
Tell me not of love ruled by the heart
But of love that sprung from it.

Equality

Cherish me if you will,
But don't you smother me.
Care for me then,
But don't cloak me with your vanity.
I will love you.
But I won't control you.
So cherish me as I will,
But let me stand on my feet.




#RM
undated, circa 2007
01.11.19