Don't Step Away

We promised forever that starry night
The next days were like a fairy tale
A never-ending dream that I begged for.
I did not want to wake up--
You are my beautiful sleepless dream.


The dream stretched and stretched
It was my one desire for it never to end.
Your smile brightened each morning
Your laughter brought light to the night.
I'll forever keep you here by my side.


Lost in each other, we grew closer
And closer still. Nothing too banal
For these two weirdos who laugh and cry
About everything and nothing.
Crazily normal we spent each day.


Suddenly the sweet dream turned
Into a nightmare that we could barely contain.
We held to each other, fighting,
Trying to control the fears and pains.
Wishing for the suffering to end.


Together we bent, we cried, we stood.
I carried you in your moments,
You lifted me up in my miseries.
Our dreams contained in our clasping hands.
Chasing a future, unsure, but with courage.


Limitations, possibilities, solutions
We suffered and conquered it all
We tried not to fall, time and again.
But when we did, we struggled to dream
Again. Again. Again.


You are brave, my sweet love
Braver than I--time and again.
You fought with me, for me, and against me.
I fought with you, for you and against you.
Through it all, we dwelled in our dream.


Together we stumbled, together we rose.
There were times when I was afraid,
I was too weak, and scared that you will
Run away, and leave me by myself.
I wanted to say: Don't step away. No.


Then I saw you step. Step. Step.
It was like the beginning of the end of me.
But you were there, closer and closer.
Holding out your hand to me.
You are my never-ending dream.


#RM

I'm Not Ready

It was almost like what I imagined it will be.
That night you knocked on my door,
Said your "Are you there?" and knocked some more.
My heart beating fast--almost like a heart attack.


Slowly, oh so slowly, I walked to the door
Almost turned the lock to let you in
With the best expression of joy I had.
Midway, I stopped. I'm not ready yet.

Black and White

M:
Should I stay? Or should I go?
You pull me closer; you push me away.
I never did understand why we worry too much
About what the public would say.
Let me just hold you tight,
And they will go away.


W:
Should I keep you with me?
Or should I set you free?
It hurts when we're apart, but
It hurts when we are together.
They try to tear us apart,
Yet we try to  hold on--hold on.

In My Fantasy

Late at night, I see you walking to me
Into my stretched out arms, waiting for you
For your body to be next to mine,
Your heart beating faster, faster, faster.
Then the wind blows and you're gone.


Like nails slowly embedding in my heart
It hurts me so bad that you are far away
I can't hear your voice, hold your hand
Or sway you with the music of your song
Are you asleep right now? I need you.